February 2012
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I hate being alone at night.. too much overthinking.
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Beauty intimidates me.
Nothing like being scared of talking to someone pretty.I tend too stutter. I feel as if I say the wrong thing, they won’t talk to me again.
Jay-Z & Kanye West - Gotta Have It
I want a hug right now. One of those hugs where you feel secure. Where you just get to let out all of your tears. The one where it makes you feel as if everything is okay. Right now isn’t a good time for me and all I want is some comfort. Sucks knowing things get’s worse. I don’t have anyone there just to keep me company and get my mind off things. I get sucked in all my feelings...
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I like the feeling of saying, "sorry I'm taken".
Idk sounds weird but it gives me a good feeling to know I’m taken and with someone.
Jay-Z & Kanye West - No Church In the Wild...
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I absolutely adore you.
Don't tease me unless you're actually gonna give...
That’s like buying a kid candy, Wavin it in his face and not giving it to him. Makes no sense.
What girls think is bad about themselves = what guys like.
- thick thighs
- chubby cheeks
- messy buns
- shyness(to a point)
- no make-up
- their own voices
Many more.
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Mom,
I swear she’s so strong. I really don’t know what will happen if she does has cancer. She’s held us up for so long. She was always alone with just me and my brother. It hurts to know at any moment something can happen. I’m a mommas boy for life and the news I heard today was completely devastating. I’m crying out my mind but stuck in my room with my door locked....
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I’m fuckin scared right now. I don’t know what to think. I’m terrified of what will happen.. My mom just found out she has a tumor in her uterus that might be cancerous. Cancer runs big in my family and i’m scared as fuck. She came to me and my brother crying and telling us. She doesn’t know forsure but she’s not letting anyone else know until she knows forsure...
I get jealous too..
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Ouuu. Some might not agree, but I love to fuckin fight. Blood rushin, heart beating faster. It’s a rush. Being able to sock a nigga in the face. Yes, getting that “back the fuck up” feeling. Woo.
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There is a fine line between funny and annoying. Some people need to learn it.
Good company is hard to find nowadays.
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I hate when people ask me rhetorical questions. Example. I trip and fall down stairs. Someone asks “are you hurt?” Obviously you fuckin dumbass.
I wish I caught eyes.
I want a princess. Not a real one obviously but someone that I can treat as my princess. Not a queen. Queens are often put in charge and too busy. I want a princess. I’m able to love every second of her presence. Treat her as if she deserves everything. Love unconditionally.
I swear i’m so mad. The one with the most shit get’s the best happen to them. I feel like fuckin with girls feelings let’s you be happy. I’ve done nothing but good. I don’t lie. I don’t cheat. I don’t do anything. I haven’t gotten any good karma back only bullshit, but it seems like the people who do the worst things. Have good things happening to...
Simple. I miss you.
Tease me. That’s the worst thing you can do to me. It makes me want you even more. Gets my hormones on high.
I miss her. I keep thinkin about Saturday. seeing her again. so much feelings rushed. her kiss before she left. I still love her. It’s hard.. Holding her. Hugging her. sitting there and holding her hand. fuck. I hate this feeling. Silences make me think to much. Trying to keep myself occupied but all I can think about is her.
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Audio Push - Bad Woa’.
We seek the ones who give us no attention, but the attention we get is the one we don’t want.
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Smiling doesn’t necessarily mean i’m happy. It just means throughout all the shit I go through. I’m strong enough to tolerate the bullshit and cope with everything. It’s like a trick to make people seem like i’m okay. In reality i’m screaming out of my fucking lungs, going crazy with all these thoughts. I think about suicide but that’s never the answer....
I shouldn’t be jealous. She’s not mine. Yet, I still think about her. I still see her around and I get jealous when I see her talk to someone else. I’m so stupid. She left me and i’m still the one sprung. She left me when I gave her everything. I treated her like a queen. I hate this. Why do I miss you. I’d delete you off everything but that would just be childish. I...
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I'm there,
there for my friends. It’s hard for me to say no but I do favors for them. I’m there. When they are in need of help I make the time. If they can’t sleep they know i’m a call away. I do my best to keep them company. I make sure I put my friends before myself. I take their feelings into account. I mean. If it was me, I would want someone there. Treat others how you want to be...
I need company,
Not one of them one night things though. Someone I can be able to talk to on the daily. Always just a text or call away. Someone that I can just pillow talk with. No intention of dating just good company. Not attached like a couple. I’ll be there for that person too but I just want good company. Seems like it’s too much to ask for. I’m not asking for too much.. Well at least I...
Cuddling,
Not only to me is doing really cute to do with someone. It feels like much more than that. I feel secure and happy when I cuddle. Nothing else is there but the person i’m cuddling with. Being able to fall asleep easily with someone else in my arms. It make me feel homely. Everything is okay. No distractions. Can’t wait ‘till one day i’ll be married. I’ll have a house...
I miss your voice.
Descriptive confession.
DO NOT READ IF YOU GET HORNY HELLA EASILY.
So me and my ex were going at it as you know. We were on the couch in her family room. With her parents in the kitchen. I was laying down with my back against the cushions of the couch. Our bodies under the blanket with her back against my chest. My pants down all the way with her legs tight together as i’m inside. Every thrust made her breathe...
Confession.
The first time I had sex was fuckin bomb. Not gonna lie. We kept having sex and sex, but one day. Even when her fam was around. I regret doing what we did but we both always wanted to go at it. We were on the couch of her family room. Taking our usual nap. With her parents in the kitchen. She backed up onto to me nudging at me. Knowingly I know what she wants I slowly pulled my pants down while...
"i'm here if you ever need someone to talk to."
Fuck fallin for that bullshit.
I'm my own valentine,
Cute shit. I’ma send myself some freakin flowers to class. Surprise myself. I’m gonna take myself out to dinner. Buy myself some chocolates. Eat it to myself while i’m watching a fruity movie. Gonna dress myself up neked and go to bed. Yup. My valentines.
I hate this. I miss you. I’m always reminded of you somehow though. Reminded of memories that I thought I could forget. I just want you back. If I see your name I cringe in fear that i’ll be stuck on you forever. Feelings don’t fade so easily for me. They like to fuck with me and come back. I feel all good inside then one little thing comes up that reminds me of you and fucks it...
Man I hate this. I’m tired of having to blog my feelings all the time. I feel so distant from people now. I feel like i’m uninteresting. Just another person to go into someones life and dropped with ease. Not worth anyone’s time. If you don’t want to talk to me it’s fine. Just don’t leave me hanging there. I don’t want to hit up anymore people because I...
Why try when I feel nothing is gonna happen. What we had was in the past and here I am missing you. All the late night phone calls. Name calling. I miss all of it, but sadly I feel like it won’t get there again. I miss her. I feel like i’m being avoided. I feel unwanted. Sucks.